Another picture

Ok, so it's been awhile, and I'm lazy. HA  I do want to post a pic I had Mr. Eye Candy take a week ago.  My THREE MONTH mark.

In this picture, my little Mr. E is standing w/ me so you get the idea of just how much weight I've lost. Little Mr. E is 45 lbs.  I've lost 48 lbs. total since March of this year. (2011).  About 40 since surgery on July 20, 2011.

I still look at myself in the mirror and see a fat person...but a LESS fat person.  I am SO MUCH happier!  I cannot explain the way I feel other than it's like Christmas when you put on a pair of pants 3 sizes SMALLER and they FIT!  The pants in this picture were a size 20. OMG.  No wonder I hated going out in public!  Although, they were the coolest Fat jeans I'd ever owned. LOL

I bought a dress today in a size 12.  Almost cried right there in the dressing room.  Mr. Eye Candy is being honored for 5 yrs on the job (oh how we wish he didn't have to work there!).  I think he gets a coin or a kick in the pants or something. HA.  I thought I'd make him look good by dressing up for the dinner thing we have to go to.  I can be his trophy wife that night. LOL

The kids are loving their new school!  So alls well on that end! Thank God.  I still hear all the drama from the school we left, and it's same ole same ole.  Plus, I think I'm less Bitchy now that I no longer have to deal with the STUPID.  God forgive me...but I can't deal with the crazy people stuck in the dark ages.  I must admit to all of you, I DID go to my Psych. Guy (the one I went to for my Psyche eval prior to the surgery).....I was thinking I needed to start counseling because I had such ANGER issues with Stupid People.  Well...after a much needed (paid for) Vent with the PROFESSIONAL, he basically said I don't sound like a crazy person to him! ha ha ha  I think I may go in a few more times just to make sure he didn't make a snap judgment. ha ha   He said I just sound like I'm an "edgy, strong person".  Not a bitchy one. HA HA  Well...If I continue to see him, he may change his mind.   I did feel like I was sort of vindicated by what he said.  That I'm NORMAL.  He mentioned that it seemed to him that I sort of liked Who I Was.  Yes. Yes I do. ha ha  I do.  I like the EDGY person that has emerged out of the fog.  I feel sad, however, that my mouthy, edgy self has caused a rift between myself and my sister.  I think that I'm embarrassing to her.  This has been a heart breaking issue for me.  The only drawback to being me.

Ok...so there ya have it.

Bring on the next size!

Long Awaited PICS

OK peeps....here ya go.  I'll start with some from before surgery, then go right after surgery, etc.

AND here we are day before surgery...July 19, 2011

One week after surgery.  Feeling alive.

8 weeks post op....down some lbs!

3 months post op!!! OH YEAH!

45 lbs gone FOREVER

I'm lovin' clothes again...and ME.  And YES, that shirt says "LANA'S Lobsters" LOL I got it at Old Navy 4 yrs ago, and it had MY name on it...so...I bought it! Go ME.

Oh the Drama of ME

Ok, so I seriously need to get some pictures on here for you guys.  I feel GREAT!  I've officially lost 3 pants sizes! 44 lbs gone forever!!!  I feel AWESOME.  I am wearing a size MEDIUM top! Whuck?!  I can't believe it!!! Went to our friendly neighborhood Kohl's department store today w/ my 'additional 30% off' coupon...and HELLO, got 3 new tank top style shirts.  SUPER dressy and two of them were a size MEDIUM.  I am in shock.  I DID find a super cool pair of boots after my bday last month, and they are HOT.  I feel so alive again!  No more FAT clothes for me.  No more non-person clothing.  What is it about 'fat clothes'?  I mean...heavy, large women are people too who still LOVE fashion...and don't deserve to wear tents or clothing that looks like a MOO MOO.   I never did understand why the clothes offered for large women were so UGLY.  The industry's way of saying...fat is ugly? hmmmmm Now there is a whole other topic.

On a different note, we moved the kids out of our private school...and they both started at our Montessori School on Monday of this week, and Tuesday.  The Princess LOVES it!  Little Mr. E is OK with it, and after his second day I think he is liking it a lot more.  I know it was the right thing to do for our children.  I loved our Private school, but they are in the dark about so many Real Life issues.  The discipline is lacking to say the least. They focus on so much of the negative instead of the positive in the situation.  I don't know.  I think after a few years we'll have to go back as Montessori only goes up through 6th grade.   One day at a time now though.

I have also been married for 8 yrs.  Oct. 3rd was our anniversary.  I laugh and tell him he's lucky he's so good looking because otherwise he'd be history.  Not really true...but I feel that way about his family! OMG.  I cannot STAND his family. I stay as far away from them as I possible can.  There was a 'moment' last night at the soccer game (princess plays), where the TROLL of a sister-in-law stuck her huge sausage (and pregnant w/ #6) finger in my face.  It took ALL my willpower to walk away from her.  I think if I'd had a baseball bat...well...you get the drift.  Thank God it's soccer and not T-ball.  I'd be in jail asking all of you to come bail me out.

Yes...I have anger issues when it comes to Mr. Eye Candy's family.  They've sucked all the money from the farm (they have cattle and cherry orchards that all the boys work) for YEARS...having kid after kid after kid.  Mr. Eye Candy used to spend his 3 days off working FOR FREE at the Farm....until I finally started bitching.  I was 5 mo. pregnant w/ the Princess and the Troll of a sister-in-law said TO MY FACE...you guys need to get another job because the Farm can't support all of us. (this after Eric lost a job). OMG.  So you see where my bitterness creeps in every time I see her face.  I think it's a small miracle that I haven't wound up in jail already.  I'm such a passionate person.  God must have about a dozen angels guarding me from Myself!

I promise to post pics next time I blog.  I'm terrible! I have ONE, but haven't downloaded it to the computer yet.  EEK!  Just know I'm Happy with how I'm looking these days, and wearing MAKE UP too!  It's FUN to look in my closet now and think...I can get rid of THAT fat shirt now! YEAH!

I still struggle with finding food to eat...and sometimes it doesn't stay down for more than a few minutes, but I do love my RNY.