Before and Now

So, it comes down to this.  The before picture (which I thought I'd NEVER show anyone and yet I have!)

and that unhappy woman! Oh my. So very very unhappy.  I admit...I was FAT.  Only no one could tell me why!  Why!!! When I did everything right!  I was exercising (good too), eating all the right things, and OFF sugar!  I was soooooo good!  No one mentioned, however, that the stomach I owned was the size of a MILK JUG!!! Or a FOOTBALL!!! wow. AND, no one mentioned that the SHUT OFF valve was at the TOP!  Ok, so even though I was eating all the right foods, chicken, salad, no sugar (less than 30 grams a day for a year!), and lean meats, protein etc....I still had to FILL the football/milk jug.  Wow.  Talk about "no wonder I was so hungry".  It seemed I could never feel full.

I will never regret having my RNY surgery.  I'm grateful every day for it.  Yes, I have to take vitamins every day for the rest of my life, but I am FINALLY full.  My stomach is now the size of a cup, or 1/2 cup on some days!  The top is easy to find when I eat.  I don't NEED to eat a plateful of food (even good food) to feel satisfied.  I am content. Finally.  I have lost over 64 lbs since March of 2011.  I am back to the size I wore when I met my Mr. Eye Candy and fell in love.

I am happy.  I am full. HA HA HA FULL!!!!  I have not felt full in years! 

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I will never go back to that BEFORE picture. NEVER.  I continue to lose, and I'm good with that.  If I stopped losing today, I'd be OK.  I am happy with where I am with my weight today....158.3.   If I continue to lose that is good...then I'll have a 'buffer' zone.  I'm so happy I did this for  ME and for my family.  I've not been supported all the way by some friends, but that is ok too.  I have an amazing support group on facebook and my Mr. Eye Candy calls me his Skinny Minny these days.  He's loved me through all of it...fat...skinny.  He's the man. :)  Life is good.  I'm really looking forward to the new year.  It's only going to get better!